past,present and future…
October 3, 2008 by zellejillyroll | Edit
two years!!gone too soon…wow…i just couldnt believe it…ive been staying here in bermuda for 2 years and 2 months (im not very good at math but i could count the days^^…)…and ive started on a new job last saturday…this is just overwhelming…i thought i couldnt last a year here…for the 1st 3 months when i came here, i kept telling myself and pouring out things to my cousins that i wanted to go home…not that i felt lonely(not much!) but i had a tough time adjusting to my job…and i really miss teaching at my dear hello english school…(i miss talking to my friends and ‘listening” to my students…i miss laughing out…i miss hearing our break time song^^)…plus i thought i would not last without eating rice 3x a day…i miss going to my dear calvary chapel iloilo almost every evening on weekdays and sundays…and i miss my two wonderful nephews and my family, nonetheless…there was a time when i made up my mind to go back home no matter what…but when i asked my cousin how much is the airfare i was taken aback(it woould cost more than $1500 one way)..i had more than $300 that time and i would look like a fool going home without a penny at hand-and not a bar of chocolate in tow (coz i know people would ask for it especially if you’re from abroad^^)…but that was the last time ive ever mentioned of going home…well, my cousins were very understanding and supportive of me…weekend after weekend for half a year i would sleep in each of my cousins house and ive become an expert taking buses from devonshire to shelly bay to paget to warwick down to somerset…but above all, i owed everything to my dear faithful Lord Jesus…He knows every struggles, concerns and challenges that i had…He was there with me battling the cold winter mornings waiting for the bus… giving me courage as i go home on dark evenings…protecting me through gale force winds and rains…leading me as i was looking for and finding a good Bible teaching church…holding me still when people are too bitingly cold and self-righteous… giving contentment on small and big things… trusting Him in faith for things not seen..and most of all for giving me heaps and heaps(i’ll borrow your expression,tei^^) of PATIENCE!!…there were pricking and disappointing times but as i looked back i know that God is continually pouring me over to be selfless and molding me like a potter to his clay…as ive committed my life to the Lord 5 years ago, God sets me on a great and tremendous journey…though i havent attained what i thought was for me, i wouldnt trade that for what God has given me now…not because im here abroad but im just in thanksgiving to God because I know who He is for me and His plans for my life…Our God, the only Creator of Heaven and Earth, truly is the best story maker…maybe if i have the right to write my story, it would be pretty plain and boring and probably i’ll have the tendency to boast for “things” He has just lent me…ive been humbled by everything that God has laid down on my life for His glory…but ive enjoyed the ride, Lord like no other!!…i know staying here in Bermuda is just for a season…the ride will still continue and im looking forward to seeing the next place….ahhh…do i smell kimchi?…or dried fish?^^….
“my flesh and my heart fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”- Psalm 73:26
